Once again

Hospital stay due to pnemonia 2015. BANG! I seem to acquire pnemonia almost yearly now.(most of the time it is treated at home)
  First off, I haven't had a pnemonia episode since 2013 but, the story of this time is close to the same as my last battle. On a huge side note, I've been an "on again off again" smoker since 2008. I'm working hard at stopping. I haven't smoked at all in a whole week. (yay!!!) I hate the smell on me but, have had a hard time with this because it brings back memories of my grandpa. I miss him so much. We weren't too close but, he loved me and he made sure I knew I was important and loved. So, part of my addiction for it comes from memories of him and the smell of oldspice and cigarettes. Gross I know. The second part of it I just started to understand. I didn't realize this until my counsler talked to me about it. While smoking you usually take deep breaths and relax. So, I had been stopping the actual inhailing part and just held it while I took deep breathes and low and behold, it was TRUE! Imagine that! I just needed a deep breather! 😛
Anyways, maybe you can understand that and maybe not.
So, a couple days before Friday the 4th I realized my allergies/asthma was getting "junky" but, by Friday night I was having trouble moving air. I went to the local ER. They checked my lungs (xray) and gave me a breathing treatment. I was sent home feeling ok. They also sent me with a Zpack (antibiotics) and a steroid pill to open my airways. I started those Friday night. By Saturday night I had a 102 degree temp and was coughing up huge amounts of grossness. I was so confused since I was on the antibiotics and steroids. But, by Monday morning I knew something was really wrong. I couldn't breath without great difficulties and without huge chunks of mucus/blood. I knew this was bad since I had pnemonia in NM. I figured I would need a breathing treatment and new antibiotics. First off when I arrived I was only stating at 78%oxygen withought help. Bad news. After three treatments I was still needing assistance with 15 liters of forced air to stay in the low 90's. The doctor automatically put me in ICU with "pnemonia in right middle lobe". 😖 I felt I had been improving as of Friday the 11th. but, as of last night, I had a CT scan and apparently even though I've been given numerous IV antibiotics I now have pnemonia in both lungs and throught each. Im able to be in the low 90's with 4 liters of forced air now. Without assistance I can maintain for a little while at 87% oxygen. But, it drops really fast.  I know there is a reason why I'm here but, I am usually a "do-er" and it's been rough sitting here and having to ask for help.
Please pray for:
My lungs to heal
A discharge day SOON because I'm supposed to start school MONDAY!
pray for our little family. I feel so useless and am ready to get back into my "mom" role.
Thank you for the prayers and love/support.
"For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you, not to harm you. Plans for a hope and a future." Jeremiah 22:11