So, I cant remember if I told you last time but, we had to move due to a severe flea infestation.
We are now living at my in laws (Haskins).
Joe is currently working in Purcell. That's 45 minutes one way. :/ But he is doing well.
We got the kids enrolled in school here where we are now. I HATED moving them from their last school but, life happens. I feel like it is so unfair to move sooo much. :(
As for me, I need prayers. I don't even know if anyone reads these blogs anymore but, it is a great way to let my mind decompress. :)
First off the bad. I'm really manic right now. I haven't slept for more than a couple hours a day for weeks. Today is the first time I feel as if I'm coming down from my manic state. Which is great. But, scary. This usually means a strong depression to come. I have never had a manic mode like this. Ever. Its so overwhelming and most people don't understand. On the plus side, the house is spotless. And the garden is looking healthy. I just can not concentrate on one thing for more than a couple minutes. I use my smoking as a coping skill. I know that is awful. But it calms my brain for at least a moment.
I went on Monday to HOPE. It's a place for low income families who need help with mental illness. I was there just doing the in processing for 7 HOURS. But, I'm grateful they are there to help. I'll have my first psychiatrist appointment on the 13th. Hopefully after that I can get back on the right medications. I also found out today that the boys and I both qualify for state health. Which is great because we need it but, I feel bad for having to use it at all. I guess I just don't want the government all up in my business. LOL.
So, Life has been going in a fast "euphoric" way for me. I love feeling happy but, I know that this will end. :( I need prayers that I don't fall hard. Prayers that I can get my "old" antidepressant filled to last me until I get me regular medication.
Also, I need prayer for peace. I am having severe anxiety over the summer ending and the boys being at school all day. I can't get a job because of my issues (bipolar, PTSD, anxiety) because some days I just cant function. But, there is an animal shelter down the street and I may try and volunteer just to get out of the house and not trap myself.
So, I guess that sums up our lives right now.
Thank you for your prayers. Thank you for reading :)
