I'm still here...

Just checking in! I'm still alive! :D We are just currently without WIFI and so writing has been a challenge!
Things have been really crazy lately. But, I would rather be crazy busy then to just sit around not being able to do anything. :)
We all enjoyed the kids spring break. We got to go to the science museum and to the zoo! We also got to spend precious time with friends! <3
We are looking forward to summer break!
As far as health wise, I have been doing well. I am not on the medication I'm supposed to be on because it is really pricey!! :( But, my Zoloft has been keeping me from getting down. Although it does cause mood swings... Hopefully I can get an appointment next month with my family doctor to tell him whats working and what isn't.
Thank you to everyone who prays for us! We appreciate it!

off topic

So, I am going to go off topic about all my depressing news and share with you all some of my creations. Unfortunately, I don't have pictures of all my work but, I'll work on taking more pictures!! :)
So, one of my hobbies I love and that helps me calm down is my crocheting! I love to make new things!
My love for crocheting started when my memaw showed me how to make a small tiny blanket a very long time ago. I kind of dropped the ball and didn't really get back into it until a couple years ago. Now, I know so much more and absolutely love making things! :)

             Ok, these actually got put on here in reverse order. And since I have no idea how to make it change, I present Designs by Sarah

                                        One of my favorites!
                                      Girls owl hat

                                              This is the Lion beanie
                                           

                                               

                                                                     Sushi!

                                

                                    This is the baby blanket that was requested. It is solid red in the
                                      Middle and black on the out side.

                                              Same baby blanket, different view

                                                              My first flower

                                        Made a baby hat and put the flower on it. so sweet!

                                                  This is a book and or Bible cover

                                                                    Baby beanies!!

                                                                   More flowers

                                                     Newborn hat with a cute tiny bow!

                                              my handsome son modeling his OU beanie

                                            A hat I made for a friend fighting breast cancer

                                                                   Baby shoes!

                                                                   another Owl hat

                                       The start of a blanket I was making for my niece

                                After I started making more and more projects I had to find a way
                                  to organize it all. TaDA! :)

                                                     Just for fun, my cat Layla helping.....

                                                     My nieces finished blanket

                                                           Baby boy football hat!

                                                 this is called a "slouchy" beanie

                                                        more football beanies!

         another one of my friends is battling breast cancer and this is the design she choose

                                        again my handsome son (I don't have daughters! lol)
                                                  had to model this ear warmer!

                                                 Blue women's headband/earwarmer

                                           The button style headband/earwarmer

                                     My son modeling the blue child's earwarmer with a bow

                                                              Black with pink bow

                                                   made matching scarf and beanie

 

                                           My setup while working usually looks like this

                                  My oldest son modeling a infinity scarf that is red with glitter

                                                  Michael Angelo ninja turtle beanie

Well, I couldn't find any more of my work. Hope you enjoyed looking at my creations!!! :)

If only

I'm sorry. I just threw a fit. I screamed and yelled and cried. Oh boy did I cry. And I am known not to be a "crier".
IF ONLY I had done as God asked and let him show me today was going to be hard and that HE would be there.
If only I had read my Bible like He asked me too.
I would have seen this:
Philippians 4:6-7New Living Translation (NLT)
⁶ Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. ⁷ Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.

Nothing has really changed since the last post except, everything. Yes, we are still struggling. Yes, we are still in the same trench we were. But, I surrendered. God's peace for THIS moment is different.

I'm sorry. I really AM. This is one area where I obviously struggle. There will be more, I'm sure of me falling to the floor throwing a huge nasty fit. But, For NOW, I am thanking God for His provisions in THIS moment.

never Alone

on a day like today

I fall completely apart on days like today.
First off, I woke up knowing that today something was going to happen. I get these "intuitions" sometimes and most of the time they are right.
I didn't read me Bible today and was "off" most of the morning. Around 1 I get a call saying Creed fell and hit his head and was not acting right. The nurse advised that we take Creed to the ER to be checked out. They did x-rays because his neck and shoulders hurt and a CT scan because they worried about a concussion.  It really didn't take too long before they did the test and gave him ibuprofen. He was soon asleep. If you know my oldest son you know that he is ALWAYS talking and or moving. So, they knew he had a slight concussion. While he was asleep he started shaking so bad! I freaked out and the doctor came in and said she believed it was from his muscles reacting to the injury. We woke him up and he knew where he was and the day. So, they said take him home, keep him comfortable and NO physical activity (Sports) for a week. He wasn't too happy about that because he LOVES recess and play basketball, football or any running activity! :(
  So, we left the hospital and got in the car and wouldn't you know it, our car would not start!! We tried to have it jumped and nothing happened. SIGH.................
  Joe's best friend Cas came and rescued us and brought us home. Joe went out and bought a new battery ($150!!!) and there went our saving and everything els.
 
Y'all, I am so shaken. I'm panicked. I'm scared.
 Lord, I know you know what's happening and I know you know we cant afford this thing called life. And Lord, I know you know we are struggling just to eat.
 Why, Why do we do this to ourselves? I feel so overwhelmed when we can't CAN NOT afford our car, our house, our food.
I surrender!!!!!! I want THIS to END! Lord hear my cries!!! I know others are struggling and I know they have it worse but, JESUS IN YOUR NAME, I pray you teach us. Help us.
Lord, come back soon and take us from this place.

 Today has been rough. Jesus says "I AM THE WAY" and today I need my Jesus. Just like everyday. I NEED Him and can't explain to you how HE has impacted me. We are falling, failing and I am hopeless. But, HE IS THE WAY.....

http://youtu.be/SZ-fghqc8Oo

My brain survived. :p

First off, I joined hundreds or thousands at church online today! (Due to weather and the rest of my family being gone) And, I have to say, Pastor Craig was on point!! Man, if you missed it, you missed the whole truth of being a Christian and praising the name of JESUS! ( Lifechurch.tv )

  I am still looking into all this schooling stuff. It is hard to find EVERY single option. I'm open to information on any thing you have knowledge of!
I haven't really looked into just being a dula. (My sister asked about this) But, I really wouldn't mind doing that round either. It's just the joy and privilege of witnessing the new birth of a baby is amazing! If you've never seen a live birth, you are missing out on the wonders of God's hand at work!!  

  In other information, the new hormones are making me go through puberty (HAHA!) and I am hormonal as all get out! which is a total change!
  I have a CT scan with contrast and the nasty icky drink stuff set up for Friday because, they doctor thinks the scar tissue from all my previous surgeries is adhering to some of my muscle and other things on the right side of my abdomen. So, that sounds.... disgusting! hehe!

  Other then that life is going to be crazy this week with Luke having a school performance, my procedure and then my step sister inlaws baby sower on Saturday! who!
  I usually stay away from doing too much. But, my new medication has really helped and I THINK I can do it!