Just today I've have been way overwhelmed with information...
I want to say, I started my day overwhelmed by what the day held. Looking into college is kinda scary but, exciting! I have been wanting to go back to school for a long time but, my plans kept changing. was I wanting to be a MA (medical assistant) or a VT (Vet tech). I have always wanted to be in the medical field and have always wanted to be an OB nurse or midwife. So, I guess I should say that I have already attended 6 births and two of my own. And, I loved every moment of the process. Even the long hours and ups and downs. I've also attended a stillbirth. The hardest thing every. especially when you know the mom.
So, a couple weeks ago, I was at my parents watching some of their kids while they were away. That night I dreamt of my brother and his future with living in a foreign country and I was there to deliver and be part of the birth. I kind of thought it was exciting and interesting but not much more. But, I told my brother about the dream. and he said "Sarah, I hope that dream is a sign of our future! I hope it happens" I thought to myself that would be the end of the subject. But, my brother (I might add he is kinda forgetful) texted me about places HE had researched where I could attend and become what I felt God was calling me to be. This sparked a huge prayer. Is God calling ME to work with ladies birthing and beyond?
So, I've been praying. And researching. I got a call from Platt asking about my interest in their school. This morning I opened my Bible (APP) and God said (5) "If you need wisdom, ask our generous God, He will not rebuke you for asking. (6) But when you ask Him, be sure that your faith is in God alone. Do not waver, for a person with divided loyalty is unsettled as a wave of the sea that is blown and tossed by the wind. (7) Such people should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. (8) Their loyalty is divided between God and the world, and they are unstable in everything they do." (James 1:5-8 (NLT) ) So, I prayed. God, show me your way. Help me to DO and GO where You are calling."
First off, I went to Platt college and looked into getting my associates degree in nursing. The counselor I had was amazing. She is a Christian and we were able to talk about God and church and life. All before we went into the introduction into the school. I learned so much about their program and about getting an associates degree.
But, when I left I felt "off" maybe too much information? OR God Saying something els?
After we left there we went to my moms where I go every once and a while and deep clean her fridge and bathrooms. I also got to see my family. So much love.
As I was talking about the whole college thing, I just felt off. Still.
We left and went grocery shopping for a few items and then off to pick up my kiddos from school. While we were waiting for them to get out (We usually wait in an HOUR line!) I started googling and digging into what I would need to do to become a certified nurse midwife.
I was so OFF yall! I looked at the schools and the qualifications. I wanted to cry. Here I was thinking it would be about two years to get it all done. Come to find out I have to have a bachelors degree in nursing with a master of sciences in nursing.
God, is this a clear NO? OR, are you showing me this so I can start and work towards my dream?
I found so much information. The most Important being, The schools who offer the certified nurse midwife programs closest to us are, Stanford-Brown college in Dallas and The University of Texas at Arlington.
PLEASE join my as WE (Joe and I) pray and ask God what to do. Which direction to choose and when it is the right time.
I feel kinda defeated. This has been a dream of mine. But, is it what God wants for me? Is this HIS calling for my life? I KNOW if it IS HE will not only provide a way but show us the way.
"(21) Dear friends, if we don't feel quilty, we can come to God with bold confidence. (22) And we will receive from Him whatever we ask because we obey Him and do the things that please Him. (23) And this is His commandment: We must believe in the name of His son, Jesus Christ, and love one another, just as He commanded us." 1 John :21-23
Thank you for your constant prayers and petition for us. We covet your prayers and love.
Have you looked into being a doula?
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