on a day like today

I fall completely apart on days like today.
First off, I woke up knowing that today something was going to happen. I get these "intuitions" sometimes and most of the time they are right.
I didn't read me Bible today and was "off" most of the morning. Around 1 I get a call saying Creed fell and hit his head and was not acting right. The nurse advised that we take Creed to the ER to be checked out. They did x-rays because his neck and shoulders hurt and a CT scan because they worried about a concussion.  It really didn't take too long before they did the test and gave him ibuprofen. He was soon asleep. If you know my oldest son you know that he is ALWAYS talking and or moving. So, they knew he had a slight concussion. While he was asleep he started shaking so bad! I freaked out and the doctor came in and said she believed it was from his muscles reacting to the injury. We woke him up and he knew where he was and the day. So, they said take him home, keep him comfortable and NO physical activity (Sports) for a week. He wasn't too happy about that because he LOVES recess and play basketball, football or any running activity! :(
  So, we left the hospital and got in the car and wouldn't you know it, our car would not start!! We tried to have it jumped and nothing happened. SIGH.................
  Joe's best friend Cas came and rescued us and brought us home. Joe went out and bought a new battery ($150!!!) and there went our saving and everything els.
 
Y'all, I am so shaken. I'm panicked. I'm scared.
 Lord, I know you know what's happening and I know you know we cant afford this thing called life. And Lord, I know you know we are struggling just to eat.
 Why, Why do we do this to ourselves? I feel so overwhelmed when we can't CAN NOT afford our car, our house, our food.
I surrender!!!!!! I want THIS to END! Lord hear my cries!!! I know others are struggling and I know they have it worse but, JESUS IN YOUR NAME, I pray you teach us. Help us.
Lord, come back soon and take us from this place.

 Today has been rough. Jesus says "I AM THE WAY" and today I need my Jesus. Just like everyday. I NEED Him and can't explain to you how HE has impacted me. We are falling, failing and I am hopeless. But, HE IS THE WAY.....

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